Sleeping is my hobby, my passion. A weird one at that , but it is what it is. Ever since I was a little girl, I could be lulled to sleep almost anywhere including on a horse. An afternoon nap on a Sunday afternoon is absolute heaven to me. When Alex was born, I soaked up nap time like a junky.
Things are a bit different now. My beautiful son is waking up almost every hour to two hours at night. Whoa. This is not easy for the girl who happily falls asleep at 8 pm for fun.
I now find myself playing musical beds to my son's unrest. Sometimes when he wakes, I will fall asleep on the single bed we set up in Jesse's room for situations like this. Other times, I'm sprawled on Alex's bed with her arms dangled over me. And every once in awhile I'll land in my comfy spot in my bed with Charlie the dog nestled in the crook of my legs. It seems that when I hear him crying, I automatically awake from wherever I am upstairs, clog downstairs, grab a bottle from the fridge, rock Jesse to sleep while he sips a minuscule amount of formula, lay him down, clog back downstairs and sleepwalk my way to wherever I may land up there. I have to tell you the best part, though. Jesse seems to find comfort in grabbing my face and resting his sweet lips on my cheek and simply comforting himself there to sleep. Every single night hearing those little lips pucker on my face is worth every second of sleeplessness; I don't care what anyone says.
Some people say to let him cry it out. It's not that easy with adopted kiddos. I feel strongly that we're still building trust. Every time he wakes up and sees my face, he smiles. His smile, in my mommy heart, feels like it's telling me, "Thank you for being there again." I will be there until he knows in his heart that yes, I'll be there every time, and there's no need to worry.
So, I'm a little tired right now. It's ok. He's worth every sleepless moment.
PS. We had the kids' pictures taken. Here's a peak of my sweet babies on our photographer's blog, Melissa Hanley. Enjoy!
Thanks, Melissa! We love the pictures!!!
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